I don't know what it is, but the closer I get to a six month mark of being unemployed...my faith gets weak. Bills are coming due and every Monday I evaluate the cupboard and fridge to see if I might need to ask for help for food. So far every Monday we have been blessed with plenty to eat till the next funds come in. I have yet to have to ask for help with food and for two reasons, I really never want to.
I grew up with little. Government cheese, hotdogs spaghetti and milk are the foods I can remember the most. I never wanted to be an adult and have to ask for help. I'm a firm believer that if you don't work, you don't eat. I'm willing to work. I've cleaned the local Inn's rooms, scrubbed toilets and showers and chiseled off my fair share of stove gunk. I've considered working at a butcher and as a cook. When the food gets low, I keep wondering how the Lord will provide for us next. So far he always surprises me. He shouldn't, but I always am then I'm immediately embarrassed that I even had doubt.
I use to do photography. The wedding Saturday that was scheduled the bride asked if I could shoot the pictures it as well as perform it. It was a blessing and my sweet Husband assisted me when I couldn't do both. I thank God for him. This unexpected blessing again will keep me from having to ask for help. In the last three years, there's only been once that I was really scared we were going to run out of food. My sweet friend came to the rescue and put groceries in my car (I didn't ask her to). I pray one day I can repay her by sensing she might need help with something but not ask for it. It's the closest I felt to being 7 and on welfare wondering where and when we might have food again that I can remember in years.
My most recent consideration is of selling my vehicle. I've paid it way down in the last 2.5 years, I'd hate to give up on my efforts just to let it go because it's a good dependable car....but....that payment would relieve a lot of stress if it was gone. I'm waiting for a 100% message that I for sure should sell it. Meanwhile, I'll play the game of wondering what thread with spaghetti sauce might taste like if there is a choice of making the car payment or buying food. Of course I'm kidding, but as a Stitcher, long arm quilter, I have plenty of thread. It just sounds funny to say <grin>.
I've been quilting on my Long Arm the last couple of days. I think I'm getting the hang of it a bit. I'm also editing wedding pictures - I really hope the bride likes them. I've also been watching 3 quilters - one named "Eric the quilter", One Mandalei and one Mamaka Mills. I'm getting inspired by them. My crazy tie quilt has been put on hold, but it's still hanging out on my new design board my Son and Husband helped me to get for Christmas
I got the idea for it on Pinterest. I really have to limit my time on that thing as I'm hooked to cruise for quilt ideas and before I know it three hours have past!
I'm off to make contact with my three quilters I've been following. My day is good, the sun is shining, I got an order for a quilt, my photo's are getting edited and I'm feeling accomplished today :)
Blessings to all who read this! Dot
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